Monday, April 26, 2010

Believe and be healed!!!

My motto used to be, “I have to see it to believe it!” Since my coming to the truth in Christ Jesus, I have changed that motto to say, “You have to believe it to see it!” There is no room for any subjectivity on that motto when you are a Christian. Faith is just that. That is just faith.


I am a survivor of oppression, affliction, and spiritual suicide otherwise known as depression, injury, and self-inflicted curse. For years, I have battled all of these demons with absolute success but for the Grace of God. I refer to these terms with prejudice. I cannot be more serious when I state that these are direct acts of satanic forces! I will not downplay the danger of these demonic forces because of the resulting damage caused when other Christians downplayed them to me for years. This only caused more oppression in my life and did absolutely nothing for improving my health or faith.

However, during the former years of being constantly afflicted and oppressed, I experienced real pain. The state of this health was not psychological; it was very real and very physical. I was administered several mandatory psychological tests which are designed to determine if one’s pain is real or imagined. Mine was determined by several doctors to be very real. I was clinically diagnosed with PTSD, Chronic Depression, Chronic Anxiety, Sleep Apnea, and Severe Sleep Deprivation. I also underwent twelve major medical surgeries, many various alternative medicines, a couple separate series of trigger-point injections, and a plathoera of prescribed Class III & Class II medications. I was in a doctor or specialists office over two times a month and in and out of the hospital a couple times a year. I underwent over two years of Intensive Psycho-Therapy due to the intensity of the psychological problems I was experiencing. However, the diagnosis of God is nothing like the diagnosis of man! My all time favorite verse must be Jeremiah 29:11-14 “For I know the plans that I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and I will restore your fortunes and will gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you,” declares the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from where I sent you into exile.”

I will listen, I will be found by you, I will restore you, I will gather you, I will bring you back…These are all promises. We know this to be the truth because, rest-assured; if it comes from God, it is TRUTH! All these promises with only one requirement…We must love Him with all of our hearts. That is it folks. This is also the key to unlocking the treasure-chest of how to receive full healing from all disease and sickness known to the human race.

Did you know the Greek definition of the word pharmacy? Its Pharmakos which, according to the Wikipedia, means a kind of human scapegoat (a slave, a cripple, or a criminal) who was chosen and expelled from the community at times of disaster or crisis. This term was later changed to “pharmakeus” which refers to; a drug, spell-giving potion, druggist, poisoner, by extension a magician or a sorcerer. God says in Exodus 22:18 “you shall not allow a sorceress to live.” Deuteronomy 28 lists in detail every curse, disease, and punishment that will befall us as a direct result of disobedience to God and sin. It then details every blessing that will come to us because of obedience to God. These are all very descriptive and explain in detail our instructions for health, not calamity. God’s Word is so simple to understand if you spend enough time learning to understand it. Once you begin to get the truth of the messages in the material, the Holy Spirit will take over and explain the rest of it to you. God provides a way for everything to work out if you just give Him the respect of your attention. However, you must do that.

I discovered through those years of much tribulation by afflictions that healing is absolutely relative to your faith level or maturity. I also noticed that as I began to grow more interested in pursuing God’s Word reading and meditation, prayer daily and at times, hourly, I began to heal very quickly. Keep in mind for the sake of this message that after my fifth surgery to remove the broken titanium screws in my lower back, I was told that I would be in a wheelchair for the rest of my life. The pain I was experiencing could not medically be corrected because when my spine slipped off itself, it severed nerves and could not be medically separated from those nerves. My spine did not fuse correctly due to worn edges, which did not allow new growth to occur causing a fusion between the old bone and new growth. To look at the CT scans is disturbing to say the least as the spine is completely broken and out of alignment. I also have a TEN’s Unit implanted under my skin in my right groin area, bilateral hearing loss with hearing aids, and wonderful tinnitus or ringing of the ears. After years of medical doctors & specialists alike, every medication on the market (small exaggeration), and many medical procedures ranging from surgeries to bone grafts, I was fit for the glue factory or so I thought. I do not think that someone can go much lower than I felt. My life was turned around on a dime and I was looking ahead to no more career & a crashing life dream, a pending divorce, and no way of making money. Hopeless does not cover how I felt.

“If I am for you who can be against you?” Gee God, you are still there, still caring, still patient, still loving me…I was so worn out from relentless attacks on my body by the enemy and multiple surgeries that I honestly did not think to even stop and seek God out. I was blinded by all of the impairments, shackled by affliction, and riddled with hopelessness. I did not know where my life had gone in couple short years from a promising career in law enforcement to stay-at-home father who could not even play with my two young children. I had almost six years of U.S. Army Military Police experience and a shorter tenure as a civilian police officer. I had completed the hiring process for an extremely lengthy administrative process of the Border Patrol and U.S. Customs. Waiting on phone calls for an academy date from both agencies, something caused me to finally go into a hospital and seek relief from the constant unbearable pain. I had dealt with this pain all those years in the military, so this is why I say, “Something caused me.” Having become good at masking my pain through my own developed techniques, at the time, I could not understand why I went in to see the doctor. I could barely get out of bed in the morning and after intensive pressure from my former wife, I just caved to human weakness and went in. No doubt in my mind that this was once again apart of the careful and orderly plan of God.

I began to receive healing in my body only after I received healing and repair on my spiritual state. Healing literally began to travel at breakneck speed. Then I reduced my medications from nine to two. No detox, no weaning. Completely dropped. Using my own plan. I discovered that most underlying secondary disease or medical issues are directly related to or result from other disease. I currently work-out at the local gym (using low weight and paced for little to no injury), have no anxiety or depression, and very little pain! What a miracle. I went from hopeless to happy. Extremely deflated to extremely elated. My life was over…or so I thought. Now I look forward to the next day, instead of dreading it. I am an optimist not a pessimist. Glass half-full kind of person. All this because of one truth-GOD! Healing is very real, yeah, but it does not happen if you do not have GOD. You cannot receive healing in any form without first receiving Jesus Christ as your savior, God as your Father, and the Holy Spirit as your advocate. Period! It is not that God is a good-ole-boy club. No, rather He needs us to be on board with Him and we need to be able to understand His love language to us. Without a relationship with Him, this is not possible. Would you stay married to someone you did not live with? There are some absolutes to adopt for this type of breakthrough healing. Here are some guidelines, which must be followed:

1) First, do not ever buy into the biggest lie of the enemy-that disease is normal and you must learn to live with it and adjust to it, not attempt to eradicate it and defeat it. In truth, God brings life, the enemy brings disease, calamity, and death. Wow! Still, I bought the lie because the doctor who pitched the idea to me had me convinced and, had I not given my life back to God, I would have gone to my grave believing it. Doctors can be so deceiving and convincing. It is not that they purposely try to lie to you; they are just following their training and knowledge. However, God uses the knowledge of this world to confuse and confound the wise. Hmmm!

2) Secondly, Jesus Christ cancelled all disease and affliction known to humanity on the cross. He bore our sickness and by His stripes, we are healed. Therefore, to buy the enemies lies, we are crucifying Jesus Christ all over again thereby negating His sacrificial death altogether or denying His death. Do not do this…It is called blasphemy and to downplay this is sure death!

3) Third, never ever connect or claim any disease or affliction you may be providing a host body to now as your own problem. This is so important to understand. By claiming a problem, we are really cursing ourselves and any children we might have. All the enemy needs to control our lives and wreak havoc is to get his ugly foot in the door of our lives. Did you know that he is powerless to cause any harm otherwise. Generational curses are the number one cause of “hereditary disease.” It is that simple. Deny it, cancel it, then be patient and let God continue forward with His awesome healing plan He has for you, but do not claim it! Claim healing.

4) Lastly, in your prayer, begin by giving God due praise and thanksgiving. Worship Him for everything you have, what He has already done for you, and what He is doing (you see that, doing=faith) for you. Then identify your concerns and ask Him to provide you the strength to resist the enemy and reinforce your authority already provided by Christ’s death on the cross. Finally, end your prayer by stating with respect and authority that by His stripe’s we are healed and you will trust God to continue forward with complete healing and restoration. Do not revisit or re-travel that same prayer. Progress forward with your prayers and if the problem continues (it very well may because God might have your restoration worked in as part of His plan), continue to get proper healing from the elders in your church and pray for strength to fight the enemy.



Nevertheless, brother and sister do not ask or request God to heal you. He can, He will, and He already has. That is as admitting that you do not believe God can do what He has already said He has done, can do, and will do. That is like saying you do not believe in God at all. To doubt God’s abilities or capabilities is to doubt God Himself! I asked God if He could heal me for a long time to no avail. I never received an answer to those prayers. He says in His Word that He will not answer empty, self-condemning, pity prayers. Bashful Christians do not see victory. They cannot experience the power an intimate relationship with the Creator includes. In addition, they become easy prey to the enemy. Remember, we must be in-sync with God to understand what He requires and expects from us. We are created in His very image; therefore, we must start living as He does. He spoke everything into existence. Speak your healing into existence. You have that authority. Jesus provided us this luxury through His love sacrifice. Do not insult the Lord of Lords by asking Him to crucify His Son on the cross a second time! It hurt the Father enough to turn His back on Jesus the first time. Use what He died to accomplish. Use your FAITH. Make your faith a reality. Activate your belief system. Faith without action is useless. It is that easy.

If you do not see healing instantly as some do, look for improvement soon after. If you do not notice any then, the real problem must be on your end and directly related to your spiritual health. Troubleshoot your life starting with your ancestors and their medical histories. Eliminate any disease or afflictions within your previous family tree. Bind up any former problems or they will quickly become your own, or worse, your children’s curse. We are all equipped with every weapon we need to fight the enemy in the war of healing and recovery. Yes! God is not gender-specific. He is not bound by race or culture in His miraculous workings and He is no respecter of persons. God never allows things that we cannot handle happen to us. Moreover, He always provides us a way out of problems we do encounter. He is not a puppeteer. He finds no pleasure in our pain. He only desires restoration and relationships. There is no “trick” to healing. It is rather simple. FAITH! Faith that what the Word says is truth, that God loves you, and what He says He will do, He will do! God created you; don’t you think He can fix any problems with your structure or internal workings? Can’t you believe that if He sent His only Son to die for us that He has a plan for healing us also? Is it so hard to believe that all we must do is BELIEVE? Not believing is buying the enemies lies. FEAR is the opposite of FAITH. Doubt is second-in-command only to fear!

I pray that you receive a deeper relationship with God from this experience. I pray that you experience victory and power that Christ died for us to experience. I pray that after all this, you finally experience true healing, miraculous healing. I pray that it blows your mind. I pray that you become so spiritually shaken from this experience that you too will have the same success testimony, which you can actively use to affect victory with others in the Kingdom of God. Can you imagine what can be accomplished through you with God’s love? Think about your testimony of healing being used to bring others to the same relationship with the Creator that we experience…What a thought, make it an action. Seek God, He will answer. Love Him because He first loved us. Amen.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Dare to trust GOD!

When you were born, you became an official child of GOD. However, what about when you were still developing? What about when you were being conceived? What about who you are now? Who cared for you then and who cares for you now?




The same GOD who cares for you then cares for you now. This same GOD created you with just a Word. A divine thought. You were created in His image. In the image of the Most High GOD! What a thought. What an even better existence.



Q. So what about when I am distressed?



A. GOD never has nor ever will forsake us or leave us. He will forgive our sins as far as the east from the west, He will forget our transgressions. If we take the offering of eternal life in the New Kingdom and abundant life here on earth, GOD will live up to His end of this offering. It is perpetual, always in play. He continues to protect us and His offer never becomes obsolete.



Q. What about my future? What about future problems?



A. GOD says that His love for us is everlasting. Everlasting goes on and on and on. It never stops or even slows down. In addition to everlasting love is everlasting grace and everlasting mercy. He extends His grace through the blood atonement of His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ. His sacrifice on the cross gave us freedom! Not freedom as we imagine in America. No, freedom that reaches so much deeper than that. Our own "freedoms" that we believe are so important are actually so miniscule in reality. The freedom Christ made possible through His death applies to our salvation first, suffering and pain second, and freedom from Satan's control third. As one decision of man separated us from GOD, so the death of the Son of Man separated us from the grip of death forever.



Q. Why do we still die or why do we still have pain?



A. Affliction is relevant to our faith. Satan lost all power and authority over man forever in a single moment of time at the very moment Christ gave up His spirit on that tree. However, like any war, the war goes on until the Commander in Chief comes back for the final battle. Satan continues to attempt to win souls while Heaven wages war against his dark forces. Until that final day, we may still fall. Nevertheless, after Christ's death, we were given another way. He bought our salvation through His death. Through His suffering, we obtained grace. Through GOD's mercy, we were given another solution to our dilemma. Do you see the point? Do you get it? We must do something to get something. We must do if we want to get! There is that decision process again.



Our salvation was purchased by our Savior, Jesus Christ, GOD with us. We are held to the trust system. We live as Christians and above reproach. We get to have an abundant life here on earth then go to everlasting life in utopia known as the New Kingdom. All we must do to receive this awesome grace is TRUST GOD! Give Him our dedication and attention. Take everything to God in prayer and worship. Let Him work His plan in our lives and be patient. Ultimately, the result is in His control and out of ours. Ultimately, we have no bearing on the result. We can help along the way by how well we obey and heed His advice, but we in no way affect the result.



Q. So, where does this leave us?



A. Trust GOD to be GOD! Let Him do what He does so well--Guiding us. GOD does not need our advice, assistance, or interpretations. He has a set standard, which He was so gracious to share with us, the Ten Commandments. He is a GOD of order. We must not ever seek to learn His ways or reasons. He has a plan and loves us and this love is all we need to know. GOD has established that He will never leave us nor forsake us--He is a GOD of His Word! Doubt is fear and fear is the opposite of faith. Fear comes from the enemy, not GOD. If something causes doubt or fear, chances are we are doing something out of His grace or protection. We must learn from our ancestors the lessons from bad choices and stupid mistakes. Abraham had his faith, we have the Word. Moses had his faith; we got the Ten Commandments written in stone. David had his faith and one small stone, we have big weapons and strong body armor. Paul had his faith, we have his writings--instructions for how to be a Christian, how to be married, how to be a Church, how to be everything in Christ Jesus. The disciples had their faith; we have their stories to use as learning lessons.



We become Christians then seem to forget who we are. We attend Church and affirm the pastor’s message with an occasional Amen then go home and forget to apply that message to our lives. We go through the motions of praying when we need something but forget to thank GOD when we get something. We claim victory over problems then run from them when faced head-on. We listen to Christian music with positive lyrics but sound like a depressive maniac when our stress level is raised. We admit our feeble human strength yet puff up our chests when confronted by our pride. We agree with GOD’s Word yet cannot quote one verse out of it. Why do we become complacent in our journey of faith? Why do we fall back into our old ways so easily? Why?



We have so many more resources now then they had in those Bible days. We have the Scriptures with actual examples for a buffer in our walk with GOD. A guide for everyday life as a Christian. An example of every situation and every culture to match every problem we may encounter today. The Scriptures have not changed, the times have. GOD is still the same loving merciful GOD. We have become more sophisticated, more advanced, more distant from our faith. Let us get back to the basics of Christianity, the fundamentals of faith in Christ Jesus. We need to seek GOD out as He is, not as we think He should be. He has so much abundance in store for everyone's life; we must begin to obey Him to see this abundance. He offers eternal life, we bring shame and contempt. He offered His only Son; we brought all of our pain, suffering, and affliction. We cannot and should not attempt to recrucify our Savior. What is done is done. Let us accept this and move forward to the life that awaits us as new creations in Christ. Let us be the head and not the tail. Let us dare to trust GOD. Selah!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

My Grandfather...

    My grandfather was always an influence in my life. He brought happiness to my siblings and me when we were children growing up in Douglas Arizona. At that time, a rather small border town, now a very large player in the drug war in the United States. A population exceeding 100,000 people, mostly all of them Hispanic. A culture all its own but very much a part of me. Being a minority in a foreign land among foreign people will always have a role in my life. My grandfather, Corky, was a spirited person, one led to small talk and meaningful words. He demanded a respect but was very understanding. I will never forget my grandfather because of the impact he had on my life.




     We homeschooled and both he and my grandmother taught at our school. English, Math, and computer familiarization. Although computer was not in our official curriculum, he always managed to get a lesson in on his days of teaching. I will never forget visiting with him and my grandmother. Their house was warm and welcoming. It had this attractive draw to it. It is hard to put into words but it held this comfort feeling about it. I would always find an excuse to go over and visit with them during the afternoons after school was out for the day. Growing up in a very tight-control style of home, it was a break to go to his house and he had a real television which my mother still does not know we watched. Having been forbid from doing or being a part of anything with a worldly slant to it, we grew up living off self-created fun and pure adrenaline. It was fun to sit around and tell my grandparents everything that my siblings and I were having difficulties with at the time. Living in a cult-style environment, it was an almost like finding a refuge to visit their home during my childhood and myself and my older sister would always confide in my grandparents as they were always there for us. One of many trailers circled around the cult leader’s trailer, their trailer was on the fringe of the compound and the opposite side of our own doublewide mobile home. It was perfect. Security in a very unsecure world.



     I will always remember the feeling of freeness I always got when I visited their home. My grandfather always on his computer and my grandmother always in their small kitchen. She was a saint of saints. God took extra time to create her. She was the most patient and loving person I have ever met. A strong woman of God. An Esther of our time. My grandfather was a hero in my eyes and the eyes of my siblings. He always stuck up for us to the cult elders who he was always butting heads with. Although done with a grace only my grandfather can reveal, he would always stand up to their constant bullying and mistreatment of us children, which was a regular event. He did not budge an inch and this affected my life in a very positive way. I look back now and wonder in complete amazement at the level of tact that my grandfather used when dealing with my own parents and the other elders in the compound.



     He instilled in me a feeling of endurance and hope. I spent more than enough time irritating my grandfather as I tended to be overbearing but he showed loving-kindness even in the most stressful of situations. He is a man of God among men of God. He is my own hero. I look up to him. I have this awe binding respect for him. Some people are in your life, others outside your life, and only a few ever making it into your heart. My grandfather will always be an influence to me and has played a major role in my salvation. God used that man to reach so many other lives but used him to change mine. I thank the Lord that I have a relationship with my grandfather and love him very much.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

the Love!

God is love. We love Him because He first loved us. Draw near to God and He will draw near to us. For He so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son...These are all very encouraging, very inspiring, very touching.

Why does He seem so far away then? Why do we still have problems? Why? I can say for sure but I, myself, have come from a long way ago but still have a long way to go. It took some extreme life adjustments to begin to see the real God, the God I read so much about in the Bible. It took me 30 years to find God. I am not bragging. I am simply grateful that it did not take any longer. Grateful to God for allowing me to make so many mistakes and yet, still provide recovery for me. Grateful to God for forgiveness, for wiping away all my sins as if they never happened. No more record of wrongdoings! No more mark on my record, no more stain on my clothes, just clean, white clothes. And a crown awaiting me. For me? Yes! For me...This is what I have waiting for me. I am not looking forward to the crown, rather the King. I long for the day I will see my King, my Lord, Holy, Holy, Holy...is the Lord God Almighty...Who was, is, and is to come!

I found that God is always working on us, always improving us, always looking out for us...Why then is it so difficult to see this improvement. It is very simple actually. He tells us in Deuteronomy 28 everything we ever need to know about succeeding. He lays it all out for us in the last of the first five books in His Word to us, the Bible! He explains in detail even though there is no need for explanation. The Bible is the single greatest book in creation. It needs no other power to hold it up. It stands alone, supports its own existence. It is God-inspired, Spirit lead. It is accurate, ultimate, and perpetual. It is consistent not compromised. It will always be within context of time. It is completely factual, poetic, and mysterious. It takes simple people with normal problems in a lost time and turns every story, every situation into a miracle, a life-changing account of one man's story to another’s recovery.

It has been tested and found to be unremarkable. It has survived wars, empires, relentless attacks, and constant scrutiny. All the while remaining unchanged and unscathed. It bears the title of truth, records of God's omniscience, omnipresence, and omnipotence. It attests to God's power and resounds of His love. One event reveals His authority, His absolute integrity with prejudice while another His gentleness that of a lamb. He is constantly caring, always loving, and more often merciful. His love pushes through the pages jumping off into your very soul. It intrigues, confirms, though never denies. It is all-powerful, awe binding, even visionary, transcending the very depths of despair called humanity.

God gave us love, and then He gave us a chance. When we failed Him again and again, He instated His law. When we let Him down yet again, He decided to come down a little closer, even to our level. He chose to live as we do, to show us that He loves us enough to become us and then, die for us. He accomplished this as a lowly carpenter. In the guise of a blue-collar second-class citizen. He became us to save us. He lived in every aspect as us but without sin. He showed us, that though He had the power of the universe and heavens in His hand, He chose something as simple as a lowly working person to give us just one more chance to right our many wrongs. Then He took the burden of all our sins on His own shoulders. He felt pain though He need not. He was mocked though He had created the mockers. His humanity resulted in the worst death imaginable, His divinity became our grace. He became us to save us.

Can we not return the love in just a minute fraction of the way in which He showed us? Are you willing to allow your worst enemy to falsely arrest you, publically humiliate you, scourge you, beat you, torture you, all the while mocking you to your face in front of the world? If that is not enough, don't just allow everything to just happen; actually love those who are doing it! Yes! You read that right...LOVE those who torture you. Then, when you have been given the worst hand of your life, let them nail your hands and feet to a wooden cross. Let them place a crown of thorns on your head--In your head. Pray for them but do not answer their mocking. Do not speak your mind; let them have a little piece of how you view them! Just hang there and remain calm. Hide it as well as you can even though you are in excruciating pain. Remember, don't say anything other than "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do!" Nevertheless, you must mean what you say in your prayer. You must actually love these people. The ones who are slowly killing you. The ones who want to see you suffer and continue to mock you to your face. Every drop of your human blood, one more laugh from the mob. You have all of Heaven's legions and legions, the vastest, greatest, strongest Army in all creation, all at your whim. But, you cannot use them. All you must do for them to save you is call. But, you will not because this is love. This is what you are doing for a people who don't even believe in you in the first place. What is going to change that now, you do not know, but that is not your concern. Because you are going to save humanity from itself by your sacrifice of love.

Can you do this now? Could you feel the pain, the sick empty feeling of being forsaken by your Father? Are you up to the task? Remember the time when you were absolutely at your worst, loneliest time in your life and the one last friend that would listen, who would listen and love you...then imagine that one last resort turning their back on you. Your absolute last confidant, gone. That’s it! That’s the feeling! Could you at least remember what Jesus did next time your cut off in the store? Next time the local school bully picks on your child calling him names using racial slurs or degrading terms, can you bless that bully, can you pray for that driver right there in your car? Could you manage a simple friendly wave with all five fingers? Can you? Oh, would you? Jesus would, Jesus did! Selah.